2 years have come and gone since Preston passed away. It's hard to believe. It's been the longest 2 years without him. How I wish he could be there to see his little sister grow. I bet he would teach her so much. I bet they would have so much fun together. Instead, she is deprived of his sweet existence.
I wish I wrote on my blog more often. Time has made it so I don't need to write as often. The arrival of Samantha, has reduced the amount of time I have to write. I think of my little man every single day. I constantly talk to him, as Sami's guardian angel. I miss him eternally.
I don't like to remember this day. I have said it before, I wish I could erase it from the calendar. But it is hard to forget such a day. I don't wish to celebrate this day in any way, but I do like the thought of making it into a family day. This year, that didn't really happen.
The day was difficult for sure. As to not help things, for the first time, Sami is sick with a cold. A stuffy nose and a little cough. Given the date, I hardly slept last night wanting to make sure she was breathing ok. On top of her having a cold, hubby and I also have it. And I had some minor food poisoning last night. Perfect storm right?
We spent as much time together today as possible, but it was interrupted by naps so that we can all heal from this cold. And then chores that had to be done because tomorrow is Monday, and my first full week back to work.
The nice thing is, despite feeling ill, Sami still flashed her smile a ton today. Which helped a ton to get through this day.
Every day without Preston remains, and will always remain difficult. I can't fathom that 2 years have passed by, yet like I said earlier, it's also been a very long, dragged out two years. I reckon that every year that passes will feel like that when it comes to my son.
Sweet P. How I miss you. How I wish things could be different. I long to hold you and cuddle with you. I pray that Heaven is a beautiful place, and that you are able to flash your smile for everyone. I pray that you continue to live on in people's hearts. People you've met, people who you've touched through this blog. For sure, you live on in my heart. Every single day. I love you. xxxx
This is the last picture I have of Preston. Taken 3/10/2014
Just checking in on you, and so glad that I did. Thinking of you and your family, and of course, Preston. Sending you so much love today. He is so, so loved and has definitely touched my heart.
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