It’s hard to fathom how much time has passed since I first
conceptualized the idea of turning my son’s birthday into a day where happiness
is shared with as many people as possible.
Where in my grief-stricken mind, I wished his little life could have an
impact on the world, as I needed his time on earth to have a meaning. And for a time, I know he did. I know my story touched and helped others
going through similar experiences. I
blogged almost every day pouring out my heart in order to cope with the loss of
my son to SIDS.
The grief still lives in me, but less on the surface; more
like an intruder that pokes it’s head in from time to time, usually
unexpectedly. I never thought I’d be one
to go through panic attacks, but I’ve certainly had a couple this year totally
catching me off-guard (I didn’t realize it was happening until it was over). Grief is not a linear path, and continues to
be a roller-coaster ride, the twists and turns are simply less intense, less
frequent.
With the constant ups and downs that the pandemic has
brought to all our lives, it goes without saying that we are all in need of
more kindness and happiness as we all navigate this ride that is life.
SpreadHappinessForPreston turns 8 this year, tomorrow on
11/19/2021. This date marks my son
Preston’s 8th birthday. The idea of
SpreadHappinessForPreston came to me through reading other stories, similar to
mine, where one family paid it forward in memory of their daughter. Since Preston radiated with happiness,
SpreadHappinessForPreston was born. It
has been rewarding to me to hear about how others have shared happiness – such
creative ways, and touching gestures. It
has helped me continue to feel like a mother to my angel. I hope that it has been just as meaningful to
anyone else who has participated over the past years.
SpreadHappinessForPreston is a day to pay it forward. A day to make the world a little brighter and
happier. I hope you will consider
participating, if not for Preston, simply because spreading a little happiness
has a way of putting a smile on your own face.
Remember that paying it forward doesn’t need to cost a thing – just make
it your mission to make someone smile on November 19th.
Wishing you a wonderful day, and holiday season as it is
upon our door already.
~Cat
#SpreadHappinessForPreston
